A New Beginning with New Hope

Life can sometimes become painful and frustrating. My main problem in life is that I am in a country where PayPal has not come yet. I am hoping that Visa can shine in this field as in my country we have Visa card. So, I have to face limitations in every step. This can be as frustrating as possible. I have all the skills and ideas but my hands are tied. On the other hand, writing is the only thing I like and I can do well. Because of bad health and mental stress of last two years, even I could not blog well.

Now, I have to make a very strong comeback and I am doing so. Yesterday, I could do another thing that I felt that it was indeed a miracle for me from God. I could cycle for one hour. It is not a real bi-cycle but an exercise device and I burnt nearly 400 calories. This simple thing has now given me a lot of hope.

For at least 6-7 years, I felt very lazy about doing exercise. I tried to get my energy through coffee and Coke. I also consumed a lot of junk food. Now, it is almost 19 days that I have become a vegetarian. It is another miracle for me given by the fact that I was too much fond of junk food items. The best part is that I do not feel any craving for meat now.

Yes, I have started to feel young again and I have started to regain my energy. So, it is the time for me to start writing fulltime again. I am very lucky to have a dedicated and supportive wife. 

It was great to Write in this Blog

It is like a farewell post for me here. I am not going to totally stop writing here but I know that I will be totally irregular. I have to start from the beginning in online writing and there is no time for hobby writing unfortunately. So, I have to start again writing for money and sadly, I have to try my best now. I have to give all my efforts elsewhere.

I never took this blog seriously but still, it attracted a decent number of followers and Feedburner subscribers. I like to thank all of you for supporting me. It is a sad and painful decision but there is no other choice. I have to give all my heart for earning money through blogging. This blog is not suitable to earn any money. 

Hope can recover you powerfully

Today, I woke up at 6:30 AM in morning. For the last 3 days, I have been able to wake up early in the morning. For the last few years, it was my biggest problem as I could not sleep until 5 or 6 AM in the morning. Then, I had to wake up and I had to take tea and coffee a lot just to stay some fresh.

I had hope and dream and now, I realize the value of hope and dream more than ever before. Now, the next thing to fix is earning money through blogging. At the same time, I have to decrease weight. I am now under low calorie diet and mainly, I am trying to become a vegetarian. It is impossible to get out of overweight unless I commit to a permanent change in my eating habit.

This is the thing I am trying to do now. I could never imagine that someday I would be able to totally omit fish and meat. It is true that my heart craves a lot for spicy, frying and oily food items. I think of mutton and large shrimp every day. I think of burgher, sandwich, mutton chop, chicken fry, beef kebab almost every day but for the last two weeks, I could stay away from them. Even I have not eaten a single packet of crisps in the last 15 days.

This is a big revolution for a person like me who was addicted to junk food. I never gave up my hope of becoming a vegetarian.

In the last 20 months, I could decrease weight on several occasions but then again my weight again increased because I never tried to become a strict vegetarian. Now, I am trying my best for it. 

A Silent Revolution in Changing Sleeping Time

Now, it is 6 AM in the morning. No, I did not stay awake whole night. Instead, I could sleep at 9:30 PM at night and woke up 5 AM in morning. It happened yesterday too. I have to wait another few days to realize whether this change in time is permanent or not but I am very happy for it.

Even last week, it seemed to be impossible to me. Perhaps, becoming a vegetarian has helped a lot. For the last 3 days, I could even omit egg. Of course, I am overweight and now, the main priority is to decrease weight. I need to decrease at least 15 KG (33 lbs.). For the last 3 years, I have been trying to decrease weight. Sometimes I can do so and then again come back to the original weight. This time, I am hopeful because at last, I have been able to become a vegetarian. Of course, I have to decrease use of oil.

Becoming a vegetarian is good from financial side too. My expense has decreased significantly as vegetable items are much cheaper than meat or fish.

As for the sleeping habit, I must not go back to what I did in the last 5 years. Well, life was full of stress and I became nervous and sought comfort in coffee and Coke. Tea is much better. In the last two days, I even drunk tea but did not face any problem. 

Happy Birthday: The Second Chapter in Life

Today is my birthday and I am happy for it. I am an Aries and I guess that I have many of the positive and negative sides related to this sun sign. Five years ago on this day (22 March 2006), I started professional blogging or blogging for earning money. I cannot believe that 5 years have passed. It really seems like yesterday. Now, after 5 years, here I am again.

I have to start almost from the scratch. However, I am not sad or unhappy. I am starting my efforts with a happy heart. My health has improved significantly. I can touch it easily. I am hopeful that things become bright for me. 

How to really learn from Failures and Bounce Back?

I cannot claim that I have bounced back from my failure but I surely know that I have learnt some valuable lessons. I am hopeful that these lessons will help me to effectively bounce back in life in the next few months. Now, it is important to find a good strategy to bounce back. In other words, the mistakes of the past must not be repeated. If you are trying to bounce back in life after a miserable failure in anything (job, love and marriage, health, education etc.) then read this post and try to join me in the discussion in the comment section.

Slow and Steady: Whatever you do, please, do not be in a hurry unless you are in such a desperate condition that if you cannot bounce back in a short time then you will become bankrupt and end up in the street. I have seen that many people do this mistake. Why should I blame others? I am just one of them. When you are in a hurry then either you make more mistakes or you become frustrated when you do not see good result at a short time.

Do your Homework Properly: No one dreams to be a loser in life. Why did you fail in the first place? If you repeat the same things like past then again you will fail- isn’t it obvious? So, do your homework and try to analyze your mistakes. Do not deceive yourself about it. If you do so then you will again end up in failing. On the other hand, if you can learn from your mistakes then there is every possibility that you can bounce back to success in life.

Health is wealth: When we are young, we tend to think that we will always be strong and healthy. Actually, health does not get destroyed in a week or even in a month. It slowly gets destroyed and then getting it back takes a lot of time and real determination. Whatever plan you have, in order to execute it, you need good health. In fact, this is now my main problem. I have all the knowledge, information and skill to become successful in professional blogging. I just still cannot work fulltime or 8 hours a day. Five years ago, when I started blogging, I could work 12-16 hours a day.

Do not bother about Others: Most people love to give advice. Especially, when you are failing in life or your condition is really miserable, then some people around you may consider it their holy duty to give all kind of advice to you. Secondly, some people would enjoy your bad condition and would try to offend you emotionally. While you cannot control others, you surely get try to control yourself about not getting emotionally hurt. From my own experience, I can say that it is not that easy. However, you must have the dream that someday, others wont be able to hurt you emotionally. This dream is valuable. When you can isolate yourself from other people, it becomes easier for you to focus on rebuilding your life again. I wish that I had this knowledge five years ago. Still, it is never too late.

Be patient: Although I have already stated above the importance of being slow and steady, I like to again emphasize that you must never hurry while trying to bounce back in life after a bad failure. You have to be patient and if you are not then you cannot hope to bounce back.

I have just gives you a few simple tips here. I seek your help to continue the discussion. What more tips can you give? 

Professional Blogging: The Second Innings

I am happy to be back to fulltime blogging again. Because of sickness, I could not work for nearly 2 years but now, I feel much better. The last two years have taught me some valuable lessons. The most important lesson that I have learnt is that I must not make myself sick from too much work. There is no problem in working hard but I must not get too much excited and carried away and make myself sick.

I love blogging and I love when hundreds of people read my entries. I love when people praise me and thank me for my entries. So, here, I am back again in the second innings of professional blogging. I hope to enjoy it and become successful within a short time. 

I am better, Much better

At last, I have started to feel normal. I am not still 100% fit but I really feel well compared to anytime in the last 2 years. I am hopeful for the future. Now, the only problem is that I cannot sleep whole night. I am hopeful of solving it within a few days.

I also need to decrease my weight as it is now 101 KG. For the last 10 days, I am just eating vegetables and that is why, I feel even better. I always dreamt to be a vegetarian but I was too much fond of mutton. Now, the only touch of non-vegetarian food I get is eggs. Even I am determined to stop eating eggs.

No, I am not becoming a strict vegetarian. From time to time, I intend to eat and fish. 

One week of Not Drinking Tea

It is the 7^th day that I did not drink tea. At last, I have really started to fell normal in my body and mind. Compared to one year ago, things have really improved a lot for me. I feel that I have no problem. I just need to change my sleeping habit and come back to normal life.

For the last 7 days, I got good rest. I did not need to go out at all and I could sleep properly. I just hope that I can maintain this style and get back normal health. When I look back to my past, I feel that life was often very cruel and miserable to me. On the other hand, I neglected myself a lot too. Now, life is much easier for me. So, I have to focus on taking care of myself properly.

I am trying to make a small company successful. Now, I have realized that it is not that easy as I have to manage some other people. Sometimes, it becomes frustrating because I have to be engrossed with dealing problems related to the company and I cannot focus on my health or my work properly. On the other hand, having good assistants is a great blessing too. If they work properly then life becomes easy for me. Thus, it is like a dilemma.

I am trying to come out of the dilemma and find a good balance between managing the company and my own personal life. It is not easy because in the company, I have to deal with human beings not with machines.

It is a small victory for me that I have not taken tea for one week. I did another good thing too. I ate like a vegetarian for the last one week. This is a big victory because I am too much fond of goat meat.

For the last few days, because of not drinking tea at all, I felt some abnormal. My mood changed a lot from time to time. Today, I feel much better.  

Why am I Fond of Blogging?

I am happy that at last I have found something to write about other than repeating about my health and mind. Just for the record, today is the fifth day that I have not drunk any tea and I feel some tired but fresh. It will be another night of not sleeping but I am hopeful that within one week I can sleep at night. Anyway, the original topic of this entry is why I like blogging.

I like blogging because first of all, I like writing. I always wanted to be a journalist or a writer. I tried some other jobs mainly teaching but I did not get that much satisfaction. Yes, I still enjoy teaching but I do not like going to a university or school and teach. Instead one or two students come to my home and I teach them privately. It is perhaps more tutoring than teaching. Anyway, blogging has brought the freedom for me to write.  

I used to be a freelance journalist and I have published more than five hundred writings in newspapers and some magazines. I have translated a book and I have written many things for other people. Ninety percent of the time I used to write for money but living in a third world country, the money from writing was never enough. So, blogging has brought me the freedom that on the one hand, I can write fulltime with all the satisfaction. On the other hand, I do not need to worry about money.

Many people tend to neglect or look down upon blogging. They think that it is less prestigious than freelance writing. In other words, a freelance writing carries more prestige and honor compared to blogging. Somehow, I agree with them but at the same time I like to remind them that even in freelance writing or writing, if your writing is not good and is not appreciated by other people then it dose not have any respect or value. Many people try their luck in writing but only a handful of them become successful in this field. The same goes for blogging.    

Many people or I should say millions of people have tried their luck in blogging in last five or six years. Very few of them could earn enough money and became famous. So, from this point of view, I do not see any major difference between freelance writing and blogging. Yes, freelance writing has one advantage. Most of the time, your writing is supervised by editors. In blogging, there is no editing in most of the cases. Still, as I have said if you are successful in blogging then it matters.

So, another good side of blogging is its potential to change life. For example, I live in one of the poorest countries on earth. We hardly have any modern facility. Communicating with people of other countries was always a major barrier for me. On the other hand, since I joined blogging, things have become much better. I can communicate with people of other countries. I have received some praise for my blogging too. Many people read my entries. Before coming to blogging, my hands were really limited but now in every way, I feel that I have more opportunities.

So, now you know why I am fond of blogging.  

Another Sleepless Night but without any Stress

I have understood that I will not sleep again tonight. It is 2 AM but I feel fresh. Today was the 4^th day that I did not drink any tea. I am hopeful that within a week I can change my sleeping habit. It will be great if I can sleep within 1 AM or 2 AM at night.

The main problem now is that at day time others call me and I have to wake up. It totally puts a lot of stress on my health and mind and I cannot work well. Perhaps this is the main reason that I cannot come back to normal work. On the other hand, if I can sleep normally at night then I can work with a fresh mood in day time.

Tonight, I feel much better and I am hopeful that I can do some work. I am almost back to normal life and it gives me a lot of happiness. I know it very well that in my entries of last one year in this blog, I am just talking about the same things over and again. Sometimes, I even get bored but I realize that doing this nonsense thing has helped me a lot.

This blog has now 60 followers. I am deeply grateful to all of you. It is nice to know that some readers read my nonsense entries. While browsing throw some of the blogs of the followers of this blog, I realized that I should mention some of the entries:

Another lesson (Stephanie has talked about the importance of being patient)

The Internet: The Best Friend of Writer's Block? (The title says it all)

A Day in the Life of India (A touching real life story)

Stop Choking on Routine and Live Your Dream! (Read it and you will feel inspired)

Fighting against Addiction to Tea

I am perhaps among the rare people who find it difficult to sleep at night because of drinking tea. I have inherited it from my mother. Anyway, it all started 5 years ago when I fell into a bad condition in my career and I had to try desperately to get some work that would bring some money. I was unemployed for 3 months and I gave everything of me during that time. I used to work until 8 AM in morning and then sleep. Then, I developed habit of coffee and coke.

Fortunately, I could give up coffee nearly 18 months ago and Coke nearly 6 months ago. Now, the last thing I need to give up is tea. For the last 3 days, I have not drunk at all. My health has improved a lot and if I can just now change the sleeping habit then I think that I can come back to normal fulltime work. I have learnt my lesson and I will from now try my best to keep my mental peace.

So, for the time being, the only focus is on getting out of drinking tea. 

Planning is the most important step for Success

I woke up one hour ago. Today, I have no special work and I have all the hours ahead of me to write or blog. So, I can easily work for 8 hours now without any interruption. In fact, my stress has almost finished and at last, I can start working fulltime without any real pressure.

Now, the main problem in front of me is that what I should do in the next few hours. I know that I should write some entries but what would be the topic. It is a very simple question but I have seen many people facing problem from this simple matter. This simple matter wastes a lot of time in our daily life. It is a common problem everywhere.

Of course, if you are in a job then you already know what you should do. At the beginning of your job, your boss or your manager normally tells you what to do. After you have become experienced, you already know what you have to do. On the other hand, I am a self-employed person. I run a small company. So, I have to decide what has to be done everyday. I have to decide for myself and for others working with me. So, planning is indeed a crucial thing.  

Until now, I never spent a lot of time on planning. Because of this reason, I have suffered many setbacks in the last few years. I have been able to stop watching TV and I have been able to cut back on the time of browsing Internet without a purpose. So, I have more free time now and I must focus on this matter from now.

I am fond of speed but in the last few months, I have realized that if I do not plan what I have to do then I cannot accomplish enough. Planning is not enough and I know it very well. I have to try to execute the plan in daily life. Without that there is no difference between planning and dreaming. On the other hand, you cannot execute your plan successfully every day. In that case, you must not become frustrated. There is no better enemy in life than frustration.

For the last two years, I was so preoccupied with my physical weakness that I could not focus on my mind that much. It is now time to motivate myself so that I can work fulltime. I am still very young and I have at least 30 years of working life. So, losing two years from bad health is not a big deal. 

Just Stress free Regular Working can make all the Difference

I do not exactly come from a poor background but my parents were not wise about money and as a result, I had to suffer most of the time in my life under too much stress over very simple matters. Today, I discovered that for the first time in my life, I have almost not stress. Now, the only thing I need is to work fulltime regularly. Even my health has improved significantly.

I have years of experience with me. So, I do not have to do anything new. Instead, I just need to increase my productivity. Until now, I was always under a lot of stress and I used to feel that whatever I did was not enough. Now, I know that I do not need to put my health to any danger. So, now, my only focus should be to work fulltime without any stress.

I must not take any project that would put any undue stress on me. Instead, I will just do things that I can do without any stress. I feel very happy that I have realized this matter. Of course, I could come away of the shadow of the past stress and sufferings because of continuous efforts. I just need to continue trying. I am happy that my condition has reached to this level now.

When I look back to the past, I realize that my main problem was undue stress. Because of too much stress and tension, I could never work according to my full potential. I was always an under-achiever only for this problem. 

The Value of an Hour of Focused Effort

While I am trying to come back to normal full time work, the biggest obstacle that I am facing now is working continuously. There are too many distractions and in the end, I get frustrated almost every day as I achieve too little. I have been blogging for 5 years now and it is not a difficult work. It is not something that is totally impossible. Now, my health is almost back to normal level. So, blogging should not be a problem for me anymore. In fact, blogging is now the easiest work for me in the world. I know a lot about it. All I need is just to sit in the desktop or laptop PC and then work.

Still, somehow, I cannot come back to normal work. Last night, I was taking a look at the emails of 5 years ago. I tried my best to get a normal blogging work as I was desperately searching for a work in Internet. Even after I got the job, I had to struggle a lot as I had no idea of bringing visitors to my blog. Even that is not a problem for me now. So, I have to just start with one hour of focused work. Before that I need to find out the distractions.

Television: I would not say that T is the biggest distraction for me but I have noticed that 90% of the time that I watch TV, I watch something really meaningless. I mean that I just watch for watching. It is not that I am fond of the program that I am watching. TV is a passive thing and from now, I will try to avoid it as much as possible.

Internet: I am always in Internet- checking email, Sitemeter, Google News, some blogs and newspapers websites etc. This is the source of major distraction for me. I at first found it a lot of fun as I was under too much emotional stress in life. It is like a drug to forget the physical and mental stress. However, now, I am in normal condition. So, I will try to change this bad habit.

People: Fortunately, I do not mix with a lot of people. Still, I must improve in this side. I have to decrease interaction with others and allocate more time for my works.

Frustration: It is perhaps becoming the number one distraction for me. I am finding life somewhat difficult because I was out of full time work for almost two hours. I have to again start almost from the scratch. Believe me it is not easy.

One Work at a Time and One Hour at a Time

In order to come out of this vicious circle the best thing for me to do now is to take one work at a time. I will just start focusing on one hour at a time.

What I realize is that now, I have to start a fight to control my mind. Until now, the fight was to make my health some better. I have been able to come out of bad health. Now, it is time to improve my mental ability.