To be honest with you, I’m finding it very difficult to come back to full time work. It is much harder than I anticipated and I’m trying almost every day but still no good luck. November was much better but December has been bad. I’m hoping that from January 2011, I can really start working fulltime. One of the problems that I find is that I’m trying to be a perfectionist and as a result, I have to suffer from a lot of negative energy.
For example, when writing this entry, I am concerned whether it is becoming good or making any sense. This is really foolish of me because the reality is that I have still not been able to come back to my full capacity. When I can come back to my full capacity and then I should bother about quality. From tomorrow, I will not think of quality at all but focus on just writing. I know that it is a very long journey of becoming a successful writer. It may take another 10 years but I will try my best to achieve the dream.
This is the thing that I will try to remember from tomorrow. It is indeed a very long journey in life to become successful as a writer. I have to face many limitations and to be honest with you, I’m very lucky that I could find blogging nearly five years ago. So, from now, I waited only focus on working fulltime and forget everything else. In January, my only focus will be to work fulltime and nothing else. I would not bother even if the content that I create is absolutely trash without any kind of quality.
Instead, I will try to a remind myself every day that quality comes after trying a lot.