I have not posted any entry in
this blog since October 7, 2012. 2013 has been more or less a very difficult
year for me so far. However, my health has improved a lot. I suffered many
obstacles and problems related to others. I had to fight a lot for some of my
close people. In fact, now my main problem is not health anymore but some
personal problems and obstacles. Even most of the problems are not mine. However,
since some of my disciples are facing obstacles in life, I am trying my best to
help them.
Well, I hope that things will
become much better for all of us and I can get back to full time work within a
short time. It is this hope that has kept me alive and kept me going for the
last 5 years. At times, it has been very frustrating and I felt that there was
no hope for the future. At the on hand, my health only became from bad to worse
and then I could not deal with the everyday real life challenges.
Things are becoming better and
now, my main challenge is to gradually get back to real life work. It is a
challenge because I have lost the habit of writing or working every day. I know
that it will not be easy to get back that habit. In the last 5 years, I tried a
lot to get this habit of working everyday but I failed and that is why, I have
lost any hope of getting it back. However, my health has improved a lot personal
problems have decreased significantly too. So, there is now real possibility of
getting back to work.
When I look back to the last 5
years now, I feel happy and satisfied. Yes, things have been very tough indeed
but the experience I have gathered is valuable too. I realize very well that
failure is not bad, suffering is not bad. If you learn your lessons then you
can become stronger and happier. You will become more successful in life. I am
grateful to God that I could continue fighting during very harsh conditions. I
have learnt a very important lesson that heath is indeed wealth. I must never
neglect my health. I also must remain hopeful in difficult times. Life has ups
and downs.
I also have realized that it is important
to look after my mind too. IN tough times, a movie can make change your mood. I
watched some underdog movies in the last one year. This week, I watched the
movie Glory Road. This movie
has inspired a lot and has given me real hope. I have remained most of my life
a real underdog and perhaps time has come for me to accomplice something.
The future looks to be bright for
me from now on. May be, I will have unprecedented success in life within in the
next few years.
